i want freedom... but too scared to have it
i want respect... but too weak to get it
it happens all the time...my husband and will get into fights... fights that are becoming more confusing, consistent, and constant.
i have been working in a call center for 6 almost 7 years! my husband & i just celebrated our 8th year anniversary! this year, i decided to take a break from work and focus more on my family. when i was working, i often heard my husband mumble "an office worker is way better than me". im guessing its because, unlike call center's infamous graveyard shifts, a normal office worker has a normal work shift. i've been working for 7 years, been promoted twice, never missed PTA's or any school events my kid had, and also been cooking meals for my family. sadly, none of those seem to matter, at least not to the one who matters to me, my husband!
i took a work break (read: resigned) because i wanted to focus more on my family. fortunately, not having to work is possible for me since my husband's salary is enough to support our daily living expenses. i have been "jobless" for less than 5 months now. ideally, at least in my dreams, i thought that by serving and taking care of my husband's every need, he would be happy and our fights would just magically disappear. but i was wrong! to my surprise, our fights even got worst!we argued like there was no tomorrow. worst, almost everything and anything can be a topic for long arguments.what is extremely scary, most especially to our daughter, is that our fights would often times become physical. there would be bruises and scars, but sadly no apology or even regrets would be given.
but at least, he is financially supporting the family, right?!? uuhhmm, yeah! right! no denying, my husband is really a good provider. without him, i fear that my daughter and i would be living in the streets! sadly too, my husband values the maid more than me, despite constantly cooking and being at his service 24/7. our fights have become so bad that my husband refuses to acknowledge my presence. in short, we are now ignoring one another.
honestly, i can't bear it anymore. i long to for my husband and i to fix our relationship!
im depressed... i need help! i need someone to talk to...
i want respect... but too weak to get it
it happens all the time...my husband and will get into fights... fights that are becoming more confusing, consistent, and constant.
i have been working in a call center for 6 almost 7 years! my husband & i just celebrated our 8th year anniversary! this year, i decided to take a break from work and focus more on my family. when i was working, i often heard my husband mumble "an office worker is way better than me". im guessing its because, unlike call center's infamous graveyard shifts, a normal office worker has a normal work shift. i've been working for 7 years, been promoted twice, never missed PTA's or any school events my kid had, and also been cooking meals for my family. sadly, none of those seem to matter, at least not to the one who matters to me, my husband!
i took a work break (read: resigned) because i wanted to focus more on my family. fortunately, not having to work is possible for me since my husband's salary is enough to support our daily living expenses. i have been "jobless" for less than 5 months now. ideally, at least in my dreams, i thought that by serving and taking care of my husband's every need, he would be happy and our fights would just magically disappear. but i was wrong! to my surprise, our fights even got worst!we argued like there was no tomorrow. worst, almost everything and anything can be a topic for long arguments.what is extremely scary, most especially to our daughter, is that our fights would often times become physical. there would be bruises and scars, but sadly no apology or even regrets would be given.
but at least, he is financially supporting the family, right?!? uuhhmm, yeah! right! no denying, my husband is really a good provider. without him, i fear that my daughter and i would be living in the streets! sadly too, my husband values the maid more than me, despite constantly cooking and being at his service 24/7. our fights have become so bad that my husband refuses to acknowledge my presence. in short, we are now ignoring one another.
honestly, i can't bear it anymore. i long to for my husband and i to fix our relationship!
im depressed... i need help! i need someone to talk to...
