#90DaysOfGratitude Day 7

Cafe Breton's Banana Split

Day 7/90 (10/07/2016):

FriDate "share-a-banana-split" chit-chat session w/ my BFF ... priceless 

#GratefulFor --> 2 decades of "share-a-banana-split" friendship LOL 

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#90DaysOfGratitude Day 6

FaceTime with my son ;-)

Day 6/90 (10/06/2016):

meanwhile in japan: my son is learning how to play the koto — japanese traditional stringed instrument 

#GratefulFor –> technology for allowing me to watch him play despite being miles apart 

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#90DaysOfGratitude Day 5

My take on brush calligraphy

Day 5/90 (10/05/2016):

Today’s source of stress: watercolor brush pens LOL

Back in grade 3 at Maryknoll (yes! school must be mentioned! LOL), during art class, the teacher instructed the class to paint something using watercolors. Back then, i didn’t understand about control, blending, strokes, etc. I wondered how my classmates could do their project easily while I struggle painting a simple tree. Discouraged, I conditioned myself then that I must be lacking in creativity & built a wall against doing arts!

When my husband heard this story months ago, he encouraged me to give painting another try. Fast forward to now, I finally painted something, uhhmm nice, I guess LOL … my first

Looking at these, I can hear the “gr. 3 confused little me” thanking me now for tearing down a major self defense wall My art projects may not be perfect for some, but I don’t care LOL Its is an Art Skill achievement unlocked for me … and that is whats important

#GratefulFor –> encouraging art sessions for that much needed boost of confidence

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#90DaysOfGratitude Day 4

My very first DIY project

Day 4/90 (10/04/2016):

MY FIRST PERSONALLY DESIGNED SHELF!!!

Years ago, my husband was interested in carpentry that he bought all the best construction tools he can possibly buy then. he even had woods ordered and shipped directly from japan for “projects”. He spent a lot for a hobby which he ended up not doing any projects … at all!

Fast forward to last week, while filtering which stuff to include for our garage sale, I found myself with lots of good woods to spare. An idea came into mind. I then had a carpenter cut the woods, did the assembly myself … and voila, “MY SHELF”!

Yesterday I spent the whole afternoon painting and was able to do just the 1st coating! Truly, anything DIY is a test of patience LOL

#GratefulFor –> youtube & google for all the DIY tips & guides LOL Because of these 2 reliable sources of information, I can add “furniture builder” in my resume LOL

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#90DaysOfGratitude Day 3

“The moment we accept our pain is the moment we release our suffering. 

Suffering is created when we offer life resistance, and what we resist 

most are the experiences that bring us pain.” 

― Alaric Hutchinson, Living Peace

Day 3/90 (10/03/2016):

“Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.” — Proverbs 3:5-6

As I mentioned in my previous post, 2 months from now, I’ll be living temporarily in another country with a totally different culture & language. I. AM. FREAKING-LY. EXCITED.

So excited, that I re-opened this blog site . Nine years had passed since I first created this account. I blame laziness for not being able to update or use this then.

One thing I realized, while reading my previous posts then, was how GOD really moves and plans your life well when you call upon HIS name. HE does hear and answers prayers, perhaps not as fast nor the way we expect, but certainly on HIS own perfect time.

I was probably at my lowest when I wrote what I posted in the picture. During that time, and admittedly until today, my life is still “a work in progress”. Hubby and I still have some topics that we argue about. I still take each day as small steps towards a new life. But regardless of how hard those struggles were then, my faith did not wavered. I hanged on to & fully surrendered my life in GOD’S hands. I held on to HIS promise that “HIS plans for me is to let me prosper and not to harm me. He plans to give me hope and a future”.

With GOD’s grace and mercy, I was able to release the past. Because of HIS unconditional love, I am able to stand firmly. And, because my GOD is an omnipotent god, I can step confidently into the future without hesitations or fear. Definitely, with Christ in me, I can live fully in the present and brightly look forward for the future.

“Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God, but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised. ” — Romans 4:20-21

#GratefulFor –> having a wonderful & amazing GOD who is true to HIS promise

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#90DaysOfGratitude Day 2

First try in watercoloring

Day 2/90 (10/02/2016): from stick figure drawings to “expressive floral painting” i never knew i had an inkling for painting. indeed, with GOD’s grace, everything is possible!

#GratefulFor –> the chance to learn painting! what a positive feeling to be passionate for something good

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HELLO WORLD!

"What I am doing, you do not understand now, but afterward you will understand"-- John 13:7

After 7 years, I finally re-opened my blog again! Finally, an outlet once more of my feelings and opinions in life LOL I actually read my previous posts and I can't believe how different my outlook was in life then. ' years may have passed but it seems like 7 centuries ago. As I read my posts, I can't help but feel proud that I have turned my life around. I have to praise and give glory to GOD because change is possible only with HIS grace.

Next month, I will temporarily reside in Japan. To say that “I am excited!” is an understatement!

I AM SO FREAKIN’ ECSTATIC. Just the though of living in another country with a totally different culture & language is enough to make me faint So excited I am for this new chapter in my life, that I decided to re-open my blog site.

I am planning to document my life in Japan. I’ll be recording every possible thing there is to record … from packing up my stuff, saying goodbye to Pinas & a lot more

So, countdown to migration begins today

Whispers In My Mind

When you are not earning, just living off someone's money... maybe you are a desperate person! But if that someone is your spouse, sworn to be with during better or worse moments in life... are you still desperate?

My husband's salary is a hundred folds more than all my salary combined from 2 different companies.  he is the provider, but is that not normal for married couple? Is it not normal for the husband to earn while the wife takes care of the house? So why then do I feel I'm so low???

Maybe it's because I don't have a job now. Probably  it's because I don't have the looks. Possibly, it's because I don't have the confidence. "Blame it on the rain, blame it on the stars... but whatever you do, don't put the blame on you."

Being ignored, insulted and taken for granted, these are actually factors that can cause one to question their self worth. Honestly, my confidence is so low right now that I can actually hear the whispers of the devils from hell. I can feel them slowly luring me to depression. Slowly, I am soaking in the insults. Slowly, I am believing that life is worth ending.

But then,  I hear the laughter of my daughter.  I hear the voice of a true friend. I hear the voice of the one who gave me life. HIS voice is encouraging me to hang on because life is worth living.

Quickly, I rise. Quickly, I stand to battle the depression inside me. As I take and live each day as step for a new life, I still sometimes hear the alluring whispers of being unworthy, but HIS voice is much louder than the whisper. HIS voice leads me to a new path with HIS light.